Thursday, February 20, 2020

Homeland: A portrait of bipolar disorder?

So I've been looking for movies and TV shows about bipolar disease or with bipolar characters to validate some of my personal struggles with this mental illness. Now I've been sucked into Homeland, the TV series with Claire Danes as a bipolar CIA agent. Psychology Today, in the article linked below, says that it is an accurate portrayal of a high-functioning person with bipolar disorder. I guess I question that.

Monday, February 10, 2020

Bipolar Disorder and Self Care

What does self care mean to you? For normal people it means regular hygiene, eating balanced meals, getting a good night's sleep, etc.

But if you've experienced the severe lows of bipolar depression, self care can be tremendously difficult if not impossible to maintain. It can be so bad that nothing seems to matter. Ask yourself these questions and see what the answers are.

Friday, February 7, 2020

Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Thursday, February 6, 2020

The more things change ...

The more things change, the more they stay the same (or worse).

I've been on my new medication (Abilify) for about a week and a half. Thought it was helping but now I'm not so sure. Bad mood swings even when coupled with all my other meds and anxiety medication (taken "as needed" every day).

Saturday, February 1, 2020

Goodbye Latuda, Hello Abilify (aripriprizole)

Finally decided to say fuck this to the Latuda. Dropped it cold turkey. Doc wasn't real happy about that. Was off of an anti-psychotic for about two weeks. Just started on Abilify this week. Will keep you posted on the results. Crosding my fingers.